Stunning piece on that brutal transition from seeking external answers to just sitting with yourself. The line about no longer finding secrets erotic really captures how exhausting it gets when everything becomes material for analysis. Reminds me of realizing that meditation wasn't goingto fix anything - it just made me better at sitting with the mess. That shift from seeing feelings as problems to solve into just experiencing them is deceptively simple butfeels impossible until suddenly it's not.
Oh.. I didn’t expect to be reading this when I opened your post. Thank you for writing it, it is beautiful.. angry.. raw.. resonated deeply within me though I did not embrace the final conclusion yet personally..
Stunning piece on that brutal transition from seeking external answers to just sitting with yourself. The line about no longer finding secrets erotic really captures how exhausting it gets when everything becomes material for analysis. Reminds me of realizing that meditation wasn't goingto fix anything - it just made me better at sitting with the mess. That shift from seeing feelings as problems to solve into just experiencing them is deceptively simple butfeels impossible until suddenly it's not.
I am maybe partially there. The second last para just hurt like gangrene in a knife wound.
Beautiful, evocative, raw. I loved reading this, thank you for sharing.
Oh.. I didn’t expect to be reading this when I opened your post. Thank you for writing it, it is beautiful.. angry.. raw.. resonated deeply within me though I did not embrace the final conclusion yet personally..
felt this one in my bones