original sin

Etel Adnan, Untitled, 2012

Sometimes I tally up my recent bad behavior in my head. Many of the sins are pretty small—I’m terrible at responding to messages, for instance. I have no object permanence and misplace my phone approximately 18 times a day. I would like to not drink at all but I still use a glass of wine to unravel myself at the end of a day. O…